Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Reflection.


When I look at my son, it's like looking in the mirror. He looks nothing like me...all dad. But sometimes I feel as though he's my reflection. He struggles...with school, with his emotional well-being and self-esteem. I see myself in him everyday and it makes me sad. I know how hard his life will be...but how do I help him? How can I prevent all the hardship he is sure to endure...I know it. I live it. Will I be able to explain it to him...prevent it somehow? My dad struggled so much with me...did he see himself in me? He's never said. His tactics didn't work with me...he is old-school, Mexican through and through. I will not resort to that. But I want my son to make it, to be someone and I don't want it to come to late. As it has with me.
I just needed to talk to someone...and it's easier to open up here.


4 comments:

Jessica Marie said...

i think the most important thing is that you are just there for him

Crafty Christina said...

Just be there for him. Unfortunately, we can't keep our kids from hurting which sucks big time. Sometimes, we're helpless, but we can just be there for our kids.

Anonymous said...

just don't let him feel one minute of what you felt, you can help him not turn into you, we're not our parents, we can do it together!

Beansieleigh said...

You are NOT alone! Many of us know JUST HOW YOU FEEL! Hang in there, and just give him all the love and support you can. It's so much more important than he may even let on! My heart goes out TO you, and my prayers go out FOR you.