Upwards and onwards...

Baby steps...
Once around the building...it felt really good to be OUT. Now I'll work on the food...I use food too, Cristina. It's like I'm punishing myself so I stay the way I am, instead of working hard to be the way I want to be.
and Lisette...I think I'm not talking about what you want me to be. I'm guarded now...I didn't used to be. I trusted...everything, always and I never measured up. I was made to feel inferior, only I never said anything or complained...I just tried harder. But I just didn't know the reasons and you're right, I probably still don't. I only have one side of that story...but it's the only side I was told. I let go of that a long time ago...I'm now haunted by my actions. That's where my guilt and shame come from...and the self-sabotage. But no more...

In hiding...

I know what I'm hiding from...everyone. My only question is why??? It's been a while, everyone seems to have moved on...why not me? Why must I still feel shame? and why do I sabotage myself? I should be happy, right? when do I start?! more like "HOW" do I start? Words are powerful people! Be careful what you spew...of the damage it will cause.

Today, I resolve to start over...I want to be seen!!! I AM worth it!

"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same" Carlos Castañeda

Why not?

Wanna Swap?

Quilt squares...come on guys! Summersadie is hosting the Quilt around the world and it looks like it will be fun. Are you in?

Mad rush...

and the pain of it all! The entrelac blanket I was working on last week was for my cousins baby shower on Saturday at 3 pm. I started it Monday night and I don't know about you but for me entrelac is VERY slow...kinda like knitting. I thought I'd be cutting it close but I would get it done...no problem. Well, I was setting myself up to fail. On Wednesday I bought the cowboy quilt supplies...you know just in case, I would still have a present to give. I did finish that Friday, all the while still working on the crochet.

See...first in line at the 5:40pm showing of X-MEN Origins- Wolverine! (awesome) We got there at 4:00pm. Raced to the best seats in the house...

See my frantic hook skills!

At about 5:00...had to sit! and still the blanket was just not growing!!! but I figured, I'll just crochet at the kids baseball games on Saturday. (good plan) We got to the park at 7 am and I crocheted like a mad woman! Now I had no plans on going to the shower...(long anti-social story) I was just going to send it with my sister or my mother but after not much talking into I caved and made plans to go...that meant a shower and actual grooming of the face and hair. That was going to cut into my crochet time! and the blanket still wasn't done! First game ended around 10:45 and I didn't have to be back until noon for the next game. So I showered and spiffied up and was ready to crochet some more hoping to finish before my mother picked me up at 3:30...FAIL.

Okay, so now I'm stressing out! The blanket is STILL not done...it's close but not quite there. The upside (as if!) the shower is an hour away! but as we where exiting the freeway and I still wasn't done!!! I'm this close to giving up! My mother suggests she stop at payless for a pair of sandals for my niece. Well that was just the right amount of time I needed...The blanket was done. Not completely...but done enough!

See the points...they shouldn't be there. I needed to make half triangles but something had to go!

and when it was done and packed in the gift box...I realized that my left hand was throbbing! It hurts so bad...I'm going to have to put it in one of those hand braces.

But it was worth it!

My man of steel...

Didn't know what to title this post...I considered "like a bat..." as in as blind as one, but it's not really true. He's just slightly near-sighted but he did pick these awesome specs his self.

Very reminiscent of good ol' Clark Kent himself...

Bait and Switch

I know I was supposed to be working on the baby entrelac blanket and I really am but I wanted to finish this quick quilt...quickly! It's perfect! I wanted to keep it for myself but...it's off to a soon-to-be born baby boy.

Pre-washing and wrinkles but I still love it! and cowboys...who can beat that!

now on to the other blanket...this boy is going to be toasty! too bad it's almost summer time!

Snapping out

In order to fight this impending funk I feel I'm slipping into...(like scary fastly) I'll keep busy. That should work right??? and I mean busy! I have so many works in progress that I'm ashamed at myself! I should make a list in my sidebar with progress bars so I feel shammed into finishing! good ol' shame and guilt...(thanks Catholicism) cures all.

This is one thing I'm working on...entrelac baby blanket.

Aaaagggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!

I'm tired! how is this my life?

Saturday

Saturday Mornings are spent at the park...chore, I know. All though the day "looked" gorgeous...it was FREEZING out! and windy.

See the catcher...last name MORGAN.

He's mine...and he's 10

After the game...(that they lost) I headed out to a much needed girl date. With Sisters in tow and the niece. We lunched/dinnered on some...Soup, Salad, Breadsticks!

(care of the Olive Garden)

Lunch was just what I needed after the week of hell I'd had. Kids! that's all I'm saying.
I'm hoping Sunday brings more of the same.

Taken over...

I've become completely obsessed by these bags! I love making them...and slowly my sewing is getting better! This bag is MINE! my husband took one look at it and said "That one is yours. You like those colors" and I do! the only thing that's not working for me is the handle...it just seems too dark?

and yes I am crocheting...I'm working on the Christin Crop from Blueprint Crochet by Robyn Chachula. If you don't own this book yet, you should! the designs are gorgeous! Take a look for yourself.

Open Invitation...

Mark you calendars! I know I can't wait for some FREE entertainment! You all can join me for the obligatory line-gating party, come early so we get a good seat...it's first come first serve you know. I'm going to try and catch all of them...wish me luck!

Everything old is New again...

Lorena (Circa 1986)

Lorena (Circa 2009)

No, I don't mean ME! check out the shades...I HATED them back in '86 but now...I absolutely HAD to have them.

Oh sew crafty...

I had a great weekend! I have every other Friday off and this Friday was my off. I went supply shopping with the sister, she requested 2 bags.

The buttercup

and my (current) favorite, the Lots of pockets

The fabric choices were hers...with minimal (lots) of help from me.

I also finished a GIANT (Really! BIG) crocheted beach bag that I promised...I think it looks really fun but did I mention that it's HUGE!

no quilting work lately...but I will this weekend. I have 3 quilts started so I better get moving!

Saturday was all about sunburns and baseball! My sister came over for a visit...they stayed and watched the boys' baseball games and got pretty nasty sunburns in the process! That's what happens when we spend all day at the park! We hit Walmart for some nourishment and came home with pizzas and strawberry shortcake! spent the rest of the evening crafting and watching Lake View Terrace.

Sunday was spent with the Tanaka's...BBq'd tri tip is yummy! It was nice to hang out with most of the family...I don't realize I miss it until I do it.

In preparation

Just getting the blog ready. I want a similar look in all the places that I've made. So if/when I open my Artfire Store, I'll be easily recognized.

Oh smug!

Remember me...and how I bragged about the blanket I was making, the one I thought I didn't have enough yarn for?

Sure didn't! and I found this out at 10 pm last night...too late for a Joann run. Did I mention the shower was at lunch time today? No? well it was I figured I could run to Joann's by work and get me a Caron one pound in Rose...good plan. Nope! Dang you Valencia!!! They don't carry Rose! So I drive to Michael's...they'll have it! NOPE!!! but I did have a swatch so I matched it as closely as possible...(failed miserably)

I figured I would eat cake and duck out early work through lunch and have it ready for him in the afternoon?! YES! mission accomplished!

For Miranda Griffith

(sorry, lighting sucks in the conference rooms)
I hope they like it?!

Ta-da...

I'm working on a CROCHETed blanket! I know shocking, right...I'm using a pattern from owlishly (love her stuff!) the pattern is called Cobijita florecita (flower baby blanket)...it's very easy to follow and I've made huge progress. My only concern is that I'm running out of yarn!

This is what I have so far...I've made seven and I'm working on the 8th now but I'm supposed to have 10! if I have too I might just make it smaller with the 8? and see how it looks.